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[B. @1437KY]

5 things you can see, 4 things you can touch, 3 things you can hear, 2 things you can smell, 1 thing you can taste

[Ϟ @XqiuzX]

I will never explain my side again, you think it was all my fault ? then be it, accept it. I don't want to feel like i'm begging to be understood.

[𝐓𝐢𝐦𝐢✰ @_timiszn]

The hardest part about healing is acting normal while doing it.

[B. @1437KY]

spanish and japanese as your heart wishes. you're always in my heart and thoughts.
take care my sweet boy. goodnight, sleep well and sweet dreams <3

[B. @1437KY]

you finally let go hm? im happy for you.
it's like a grieving type of happy. i am also happy that you did this. it hurts but i am happy because if you never intended to come back or ever talk to me again, this was giving me so much painful hope.
anyway, i hope you learn as much—

[B. @1437KY]

situations several times a day. like random flashbacks or stuff or clothes or smells that remind me of you. it feels impossibly far to get over you. despite what everyone tells me.
i carry you in my heart.

[B. @1437KY]

by the waay, i stopped using this too much because im sure you'd think its foolish, im mostly using my notes app now. bc also.. if there is ever a chance you'll see these, i will probably already feel bad enough for dumping these feelings onto you. and i keep remembering so many—

[B. @1437KY]

wanted to do? im actually fucking doing them. im so proud of myself even if the last things i heard from you were "fuck you" "slut" "whore". im so worthy of a good life. i love myself. i wish sometimes, i could give myself a hug because im standing so strong despite everything.

[B. @1437KY]

well anyway i lied about being happy about that- i am very scared about moving to turkey but i will die if i see you with another person even if part of me is happy about you being happy finally. i just live a better life now im glad about that and all the things i have always —

[B. @1437KY]

im leaving the country baby!! you can finally be happy ^^ and the thought only makes me so happy. i want only your happiness. 🤍

[B. @1437KY]

and my skin really cleared up ^^ yayy
• i have only played two swifts since i came back and idk i dont really feel like playing that much i have enough of work to dooo
>> i have an update that might really make you proud ^^

[B. @1437KY]

hi my love ^^ it's been a while since you heard from me. anywayy
it's been a year since i met you.
you wonderful little thing. uff when i only think about you my heart fills up to the brim i swear to god. even if i'll never see you again, my heart, body and soul jumps at the—

[B. @1437KY]

kissing you goodbye after having breakfast with you to let you off to work and going out to handle chores. ughh that thought is so wonderful.
i just wanna give you a few updates here too btww:
• i eat 3 times a day
• i just try to live more aware and balanced
• i do skincare—

[B. @1437KY]

ill let you live like you wish to do so.. but you can never take this from me. my love. knowing that i will to some extent always be happy. i wonder when you'll stop to think of me, are you doing a good job distracting yourself? are you over me? what makes you want to keep going?

[B. @1437KY]

youre just really good at hiding.. idk for how long.. i know you played w girls again.. i know you also stopped playing. there is nothing i can look up anymore everywhere else you've blocked me or removed me or smth... im left with nothing. just like you wished.

[B. @1437KY]

hey, there's so many things i want to say to you but somehow this isn't making me feel good anymore. i dont know if my love for you is strong enough through your absence. I'm so scared about that. like... i feel the same but i am scared of the possibility of me not loving you...

[B. @1437KY]

like i havent forgottong your face.. your pretty face.. but your voice has faded a little.. i cried about that a few minutes ago.. that's actually what sparked this in me to write.. i somehow when i think of you always try to find you somehow but either im just shit stalking or—

[B. @1437KY]

also.. i really really wonder how you are doing.. what you've been doing... i will never get over any of this.. this is the most traumatizing thing ever... please at least i hope you're fine. i hope youre enjoying your time..

[B. @1437KY]

nothing gets better i thought when i dont text here for a bit ill be better but im not better. i dont feel a tiny bit better. i got better at pretending but im not better.. what do i do k?