I wanna cut so fucking bad but I have a 7 hour road trip Monday and I don't wanna bleed on the seats of the car I'm already enough of a nuisance to my family as it is
But I cleaned my whole room and searched for anything it vould be and nothing there's just nothing there and I can't take it. I haven't been sleeping much and it's really getting to me i kept stumbling when walking around today and even tripped on nothing. I can't keep this up
I can't tell if I'm hearing real people or just hearing shit. Constantly for the past 3 days anytime I shut my eyes it sounds like someone is beating on a wall trying to get my attention and I hear faint whispers but can't make out the sounds I feel as if I'm being watched
I miss my friends I used to see at the unit. Deadass while it may have been some of the worst times in my life it was the only time i deadass had friends and people I felt comfortable around. I wish I still had irls
These past few days have been so damn miserable I'm trying to fix my sleep schedule and now that I've gotten it somewhat regulated i feel so drained and faint it's so annoying cause no matter what I do I feel like shit. Ugh dumb body wish it would just kill me already
"You're being too loud" she says as I'm deadass whispering. you know what just out of spite I'm not gonna illicit any reaction for anything she says ill jusr respond monotonely and without care.
Can't have it both ways either monotone or "loud"