NewJersey NiceGuy

A real nice guy that just needs a place to vent the shit that I personally can't.

-New Jersey

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

Everyone has their own. Lots of people effectively cope with their problems. Why should I be any different.

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

Even though I crave another person just being next to me, I don't want to bother anyone else with my problems.

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

I'm just going to stop. This isn't helping tonight.

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

This journey, game of life, is only meant for us as individuals. All the money in the world cannot buy us happiness.

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

Reflecting back on my brothers recent passing. Even if the entire world cared about you, this is also an individual journey.

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

I don't think it matters that others care about a suicide victim if that person doesn't care for him or herself.

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

Fuck. That was an even bigger bummer stating that.

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

Maybe this is why I'm now getting older and loney. I can't handle myself. How am I ever supposed to handle more than just me?

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

In all my years of being considered an adult. I have never felt like less of one than I do now.

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

I wish there was a life rehab. Not from drugs or alcohol. Just a, "hey! You're fucking up over there! Let's fix it," type of rehab.

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

The lack of motivation ous beginning to kill the one passion that I am somehow managing to hold on to.

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

There are a lot of things I don't want to hear as of late. For a job I love more than anything, I stopped trying to step up my game.

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

every single fucking person has offered kind words and advice. I don't want to be rude. But I don't want to hear it.

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

The fucked up thing is, I don't want to be around or talk to anyone. I just want to air it out.

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

All I ever do is bitch and complain on Twitter. I celebrate my life successes with those in the vicinity. I share this with "no one"

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

I wish I would write them as I think of them. Not like it matters. I have no motivation for anything anyway.

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

I've been thinking a lot lately of writing anonymous letters to editors to document some of my sentiments lately.

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

I'm NOT ok. But I WILL be ok..

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

This is the only place that I have become anonymous enough to say all of this. And hold my attention long enough to get it all out.

[NewJersey NiceGuy @1NJ_Nice_Guy]

I don't care if anyone reads any of this. It's not for you. It's for me.