intimacy does not begin with touch, it is being seen without defenses;
not like someone putting on a show, but like someone surrendering to the fact that there is nowhere left to hide, it is letting them recognize your coping mechanisms and yet choosing to stay
So, I just wanted to share the backstory of my most used name, the person might not be there everytime I use this name, but in every word I will write it will carry the intimacy we shared over the years through it. It's the signature of the foundation of our love we shared. (3/3)
Little note nobody asked for;
"4amreflections" is not just a pen name, but it carries a shared history with the person I loved the most, the '4' representing the no of letters in my name and 'AM' as her initials.
Back in 2018 we both had a mutual dairy. (1/3)
We used to pen down our thoughts, and passed it backnforth to eachother whenever we met, it was a form of our communication to know eachother's different personas, she named that dairy 'Reflections', as we used to reflect our thoughts about life, love, and people. (2/3)
you come to this world having death as a collateral to god, and you still worship him everyday to save you from it.
we humans are really built upon the most elegant catastrophe.