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'One Girl Wrecking Crew'💪Wild Rift 🌞LoZ🌞TLOU🌞CaitVi🌞She/Her 🌞🇵🇷 🔞 Wife/My Moon @griefycupcake

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

I lost her. I lost the love of my life @griefycupcake and I have never felt such pain/numbness in my life. The Cait to my Vi, the moon to my sun, my whole life and world gone. I'll never survive losing you baby, you were it for me, my entire existence is/was/will always be you 💔

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 133 @griefycupcake on my new permanent schedule now, really nervous for some reason, but I have your pictures with me, so that helps. You're always with me, I know that, just wish it was physically to share this new chapter together. I miss you so much baby❤️ #grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 130 @griefycupcake last day of training, kinda nervous, I know you'll be with me no matter what. I miss you more every day, you're all I think about. I love you and wish you had never died, but I'm trying to understand that it's how it was supposed to happen #grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 129 @griefycupcake day before last day of training, and I'm actually getting nervous lol I asked the trainer yesterday and he told me I was doing pretty good, but still, you know me. Going to see mom this weekend before my schedule changes, then we'll see ❤️ #grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 128 @griefycupcake it feels like I slept last night after like days of struggling. Probably cuz I remembered the melatonin lol work is good, almost done with training, making me nervous, but it's a good thing right? I miss you, all the time i miss you ❤️#grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 127 @griefycupcake it's a cold one, apparently a winter storm is taking over the whole US. I got the heating pad for pudd, so she's warm. Last week of training at work, nervous about being on the actual floor next week, but you'll be with me so I'll be okay❤️ #grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 126 @griefycupcake sorry it's been so long, work has really taken over my mental capacity lately. Days blur, I still miss you more than anything. I just wish you were here, nothing else you know? Can't believe the month is almost over, it feels like yesterday #grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 122 @griefycupcake today makes 4 months since you passed away. My body definitely feels it, even before my mind can catch up I'm already anxious. It's crazy how time doesn't exist anymore, cuz it's been both too fast and no time at all. Every day's a blur now #grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 121 @griefycupcake middle of the week, I'm fucking so tired. Feels like I slept last night, so I just want to keep sleeping lol thank you for the signs every day, I love knowing you're with me all the time, although I wish you were here physically 💔 #grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 120 @griefycupcake yesterday was a rough day, seemed like I was so focused on working that once I was off and going home, the grief of losing you hit me like a tidal wave. Haven't cried like that in a little while. I love you and miss you so much baby 💔❤️ #grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 119 @griefycupcake back at another week of training. Doing some work on our own, which is nice, it makes me think of you and how proud you'd be. I wish I could tell you in person, to see you smile excitedly, but I'll find comfort you're with me in spirit #grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 115 @griefycupcake last day of week 2 of training, and we're working on our own now. Yesterday was the first day, and it was overwhelming, but I think I'm ready to keep working on it, on learning, for you ❤️ so keep staying with me okay? I miss you so much ❤️ #grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 114 @griefycupcake days are starting to blend again, with the current work schedule, I don't really have much time before or after work to do much, so its a blink of an eye. I feel like I need such rest, yet no matter how much sleep I get I'm always tired #grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 113 @griefycupcake had a rough night last night, but I'm okay. Just gonna go through the motions of the day, you know? Had trouble concentrating at work yesterday, but I'll try hard today. I miss you, so much, just wish you were here with me still 💔 #grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 112 @griefycupcake back to the work week. Managed to find ways to feel better yesterday, and now with work it should help distract myself better. I miss you so much, still wish you were here all the time. Stay with me, always, okay? ❤️ #grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 111 @griefycupcake its already been a morning, I can't stop crying. I'm back in the hospital today, walking that damn hallway to your room, and I can't get out. Over and over and over I walk to you and I lose you and I can't stop it....please come back...#grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 110 @griefycupcake I'm angry today. At the world for taking you from me, when I was loving you the most, when we were the happiest. At myself for not knowing, not being able to save you. Angry because I'm here and you're not when all I want is to go with you..#grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 109 @griefycupcake and I'm so ready for the weekend lol I already miss sleeping in, and even Pudd misses our lazy morning. But work is going well, it's nice to learn new things. I just hope I can really do good, make us both proud you know? #grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 108 @griefycupcake it's almost the end of the week and I'm tired lol so much info, but it's good! Something new to learn, new to do, and all I can do is think of you and how much you'd love it. I love you and miss you so much, stay with me every day okay? ❤️ #grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 107 @griefycupcake actually got some sleep last night, didn't wake up throughout at all. Puddy even came over a day slept with me again, she was really cuddly when I got home yesterday. I miss you, this new stage of life isn't the same without you to talk to #grief #wifeloss

[LinkLonk @Angry_OilSlick]

Day 106 @griefycupcake happy kings day I guess, totally forgot that was today lol up slightly early for work, better than 4am. It's only for the month, then I'll be working afternoons, which will be nice I think. I love you and miss you baby ❤️ so damn much #grief #wifeloss