one thing is for certain in this life and that is that absolutely nothing is for certain, except death. so I might as well live and enjoy things while they last. I learned that the hard way.
I just realised that my mom lives there, too, and lowkey meeting my mother would have been even worse than meeting his mother, haha, but luckily I saw nobody
today I finally went into my favourite garden center again, which was always off the table because it's in his town. I felt super humbled how big the tomato plants were that they had there, because mine are super scrawny. so all I bought for now is fertilizer & hope for the best
one day, everybody is going to leave. either by choice or by death and loving somebody is gonna end in tragedy, either way and I never realised the extent of it and it's so scary, nothing is forever
I fucking hope I don't have to go back to my previous tweet one day and be like 'you dumb fucking bitch, I told you so', I hope future-me is a happy, dumb bitch. she fucking deserves it so much
giving somebody another knife while the previous knife you gave them is still stuck in your back and almost killed you is dumb as fuck, but, god, I am dumb as fuuuucck and I handed that knife over with a smile on my face and butterflies in my stomach ๐
or people hating on me for my cosplay? I used to be so concerned about what other people thought, haha, this cosplay was GOOD and everybody who says anything else can fuck off. the effort I put into this, I don't even smoke, it was DISGUSTING
or my biggest worry was people hating on me online because I traveled europe to go to all the conventions jq attended? or getting doxxed or canceled???