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ed recovery diary

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reeeaaally hating my body rn

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i wanna relapse and rot in bed i can’t do life anymore i hate school i hate eating

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wanna kms

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i’m never going to feel valid because my lowest weight wasn’t even that low

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i feel like i’m not doing anything right

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i was feeling all motivated in recov but i take it back i hate this shit i wanna relapse

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i got discharged a bit ago i forgot to update here lol

[milly ❁ ❀ @millyisliving]

so excited to wake up and fuel my body again today genuinely fuck this disorder it’s a lil bitch and it’s not sticking in my life any longer

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day 5 in ip we’re chillin, got off heart monitor

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i feel so silly

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deleted fitbit :)

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@cannabiscalss awe shucks jules

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a sign that i’m recovering is i don’t seek out ways to trigger myself anymore i just really genuinely want to get better

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edtwt is boring i’ve realized sorry

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i have my phone for a bit in ip

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nurse said i eat fast fuck you

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i guess this is a semi face reveal but i’m officially admitted i won’t be on twt for a while see y’all later

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i’ve been admitted :(

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are you fucking kidding me now the doctors r saying admission to ip is still a possibility

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feel too full