It is crazy how a single moment of misunderstanding can become so toxic that it makes you forget the thousands of lovely moments you have spent together with someone. Anger has a terrible way of rewriting history.
Somewhere in your 20s or 30s you’ll get the opportunity to rebuild your life after a negative loop, heal from what broke you, live in your own space, reconnect with your discipline, and learn to love yourself again. It’s very important that you see that journey through.
I’ve started appreciating days where nothing dramatic happens. no bad news, no stressful interactions, no overwhelming thoughts. just a normal, quiet day where everything is calm. those are the days that actually feel like rest.
I got distant when I’m just trying to survive the season I’m in . When I’m overwhelmed…I go quiet . When I’m hurting … I go quiet.. When I’m stressed ..i go silent. Sometimes I don’t just like faking it, so I just avoid social interaction all together .
I’m so talked out, im not addressing anything anymore. The answers you want are always in people’s actions. I no longer want an explanation as to why people chose to be weird when it comes to me. Your actions were enough for me to realize you’re not who I THOUGHT you were. Thanks