Why do you have to tell me that you bake cookies and will send it to your crush? Why do I need to hear it f8rst in the morning? Don't I have feelings?!
Day 14 of my bestfriend getting a boyfriend: Tomorrow I'm gonna meet the guy. I'm getting anxious right now. The reality will slap me hard in the face tomorrow. So goodluck to me. 😩
Day 1 of My bestfriend getting a boyfriend: She told me today that the guy he's talking to ask her out. The date was not set yet, I congratulate her and laughed. Intense anxiety flooded my brain. And I'm crying now. Can't tell her how I feel because of embarrassment.
Day 3 of my bestfriend getting a boyfriend: last night my bestfriend is so busy because she have lots of deadline to do, so we just video chat each other and I pretend that I'm asleep while she's doing her work. And I feel asleep we did not talk.
It's just me who's thinking everything on a negative angle. And she's just being her loving self. Hays Happy new year to me. To this anxiety and all my issues.
In the morning when I wake up the video chat is still on and I can't saw her but I know that she's already sleeping. I checked IG stories and saw that she posted a picture of us video chatting and I'm already sleeping that time.
I'm crying infront of the screen. She doesn't see me double pun intended. I hate that feeling. I'm happy that she's happy but I'm sad at the same time cuz she's happy without me.
The future boyfriend is sending data dumps and my bestfriend, her phone is vibrating endlessly and I can hear it she's happy and she's using her other phone to reply and I felt watching the movie alone. All the lights were out in my room and i