desperatemetall

I am drowning inside myself. My mind is a furnace I can't shut off. No, no, no… please, just bring me back to warmth. I want my mother. I want someone who stays

[desperatemetall @Gstave]

ليس بإمكاني أن أجعلك تفهم، ليس بإمكاني جعل أي شخص أن يفهم ما يحدث بداخلي ، ليس بإمكاني حتى تفسير الأمر لنفسي.

[desperatemetall @Gstave]

What he paid

To commit suicide is not a headache that has earned his head, but the idea that introduced the headache to his head and did not realize to the moment what it was.

[desperatemetall @Gstave]

😝

[desperatemetall @Gstave]

فأليوم أبكي علىٰ ما فأتني اسفًا وَهل يُفيدُ،
بكائي حينَ، ابكيهِ؟ واحسرتاهُ.
، لعمرٍ، ضاعَ، أكثرهُ،
الوَيل والويلُ أنَ كَان باقيهِ كماضيهِ .

[desperatemetall @Gstave]

دُفِنَ أَحْدَنْا، وَماتَ الآخَرُ حَيًّا.

[desperatemetall @Gstave]

And I saw it didn’t matter
who had loved me or who I loved.
I was alone

[desperatemetall @Gstave]

الألم والمعاناة، دائمًا ماتكون حتمية.

[desperatemetall @Gstave]

يَدْ عَلَىٰ الخَدّ وَالأَفَكْارُ هَائْمَةٌ
وَفِي العِيْونِ شتّاتْ لَسْتُ أُخّفِيّة.

[desperatemetall @Gstave]

ولا شجرة يلوذ فيها حمامي،
كأن الحياة ذاتها قد أقسمت أن لا تأويني.

[desperatemetall @Gstave]

And for a moment I felt like I wanted to tell you everything that had happened to me, everything that throbbed under my skin, all the sleepless nights. I wanted to tell you about the nightmares that I had over and over again in my restless sleep.

[desperatemetall @Gstave]

So the sighs of the executioner are lightened by the loneliness. There are only a few minutes left before a large crowd of spectators gather on the day of my execution and swarm me with cries of hatred and loathing