anonymous

this is my diary. welcome. this is not for fun. i am genuinely struggling with my mental illness and this account is not to be treated lightly.

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

welcome. do not call me anything. i do not wish to be called a name for then i will be discovered. this is my diary where i release everything during my days, including my relationship with my girlfriend. they/them please. tw for episodes, sh, ed, a lot.

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

Now you see me
Now you don't
Now you say you love me
Pretty soon you won't

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

happy new year everyone.
i hope at least hers and more will be happy, without me or not.

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

it's the new year, starting it alone (she moved very far). wondering if i am gonna end it actually alone

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

hello all. i think i give up

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

shes oing to abandonme when she moves, huh? yeah

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

iitold herr howufcked up ii am i knew this shti would happen

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

immmgm onna go tobed aloneagain arent i

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

i dont remember ifi toooksomething before i drank this

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

im realstarting to hate this girl, firstshe takes my gf for halloweeennow tehe day before we're supposed to hang out? idrather her not comre than be a second option again

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

i ccant take this man i need a raozor i cant find any

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

yeah thank you for giving me msot of your time likeyou SHOULD, because i am yourspouse, but seriosl we both have huge paranoia issues, not even a simplehello? and thenimm the ones hwos being 'fucking riduculouss'/?

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

i get shesleaving but its sosuspuscios and she obviously likesher does she really not see th eproblem with her disappearing for 5hours not even a simpl e"hi im alieve osrry"?

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

i accidentlalymade another with way more tequilaand apparentlyits 40$% alcohol pr vl .... this iwll be fun

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

i spilled it nand nowhave to do laudnry at 1 am

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

you know im 99% sure im beingcheated on as i ttpe this, am i justgonna settle in the morning and lve my life in paranoiaa? yes

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

i have learned to like the taste of tequila. i am an aplha male /j

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

alcohol is always here for me at least

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

idk why i feel so dumb wanting to do something specific with an oc of mine. i am about to cave and ask someone i do not really like to do it with me

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

i need to get new people to hyperfixate on and become my favorite person so i can just get them to do stuff with me

[anonymous @jarofheartsss]

i feel dumb getting upset that my girlfriend rejected us shipping something. i know that oc is different but i do not understand not making another one, i do not know why it affected me so bad