im tired and im not doing well and i hate that i cant be normal and that the only way i can even get any of it off my chest is to be here only to be reminded that thats all i can do because i have no support system
everyone else gets to belong somewhere while im just kind of There but i inevitably come back bc i dont have anywhere else even when it feels bad bc so does being alone. its just worse bc i deluded myself into believing i could be better but i always end up in the same place
my things dont feel like my things anymore and i thought that for once i actually got to enjoy the things i like with other people instead of being on the outside looking in but it doesnt feel like that anymore and then i just end up feeling bad about myself for not belonging
@veloceleclerc 2011!! i was actually at a music festival during the gf that year so i had my friend text me when the voting opened so i could still vote for them ๐ญ (theyre actually not my 2011 winner anymore but thats only because madness of love grew to be my fav entry of all time)
Forget ๐ธ๐ช , .... ๐ฎ๐น is the most overrated country in Eurovision
When ๐ธ๐ช sends mediocre songs, this year proved they can NQ, but ๐ฎ๐น sends an upbeat version of Englebert with just as bad vocals and gets TOP 5 ?
If this was ๐ธ๐ฒ it would have Qd and placed 21st
@stomaninoff i have absolutely no clue what youre even trying to say here, i stopped watching for this exact reason and i have never ever claimed that people should 'get over ourselves'. that doesnt mean it cant feel like shit on a personal level that eurovision isnt what it once was.
do ppl even realize that it actually hurts a lot to not be able to enjoy something that quite frankly still means a lot to most of the ppl boycotting and that its not fun to have to be a downer about the future of the contest when its been such a huge part of so many of our lives
@lingfuhuae ๐ซ i get it, it took me until this year to stop watching which is why i cant be judgemental of people who havent made that step (yet) because it hurts no matter what to see whats become of the contest