noe

stupid fucking bitch

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upgraded to rock paper pencil version 3

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its summer again
crazy how a whole year went by
i wonder about u every now and then
hope u are doing good taro

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good bye taro
abubu <3

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taro i am finally ready to really let u go now
i still value our time together so so much and u gifted me such beautiful memories and emotions and i cant thank u enough for that
u will forever be held dearly in my heart
i hope u are doing ok and still trying to try to be happy

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i still miss you and i will keep thinking about you but i won’t cry anymore because of you. i will not obsess over you and blame me nor you about why u left me. i will let go of all the parts that has been eating me alive and be ok without you. i really wish for ur well being

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new eyes !!

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are you glad that i'm gone or do you miss me sometimes

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do u think about me sometimes

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do you remember me at all

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i was just about feeling that wow i might be ok without you now but as soon as i thought it out it just hit me like a wave again and i got sad that i won't ever get to hear you say hi noe anymore and now i'm crying

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even femi, who taught me how to dj the night before, was like "u set the bar up so high for me i'm nervous now. i don't think i'll do as good as you" when it was his turn to play. it was so great taro. i wish i could tell u all this and i think u'd have been really proud of me

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taro i dj'ed for the first time last night and it was really really awesome
so many people showed up, i got a lotttt of praises from the crowd, and at the very end of the set, fire alarm went off for some reason and my theory is that it's bc the set was too fire 🔥

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during the fire break, like 10 or so people approached me separate times and asked for my socials and spotify and bandcamp and if they could get a set list and when i told them i was so nervous bc it was my first time djing, they couldn't believe it

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I'll see if I can have my upcoming shows filmed too and post them here. So that you can maybe watch them if you want to whenever you can. I miss you taro. It's almost been 2 months since we last talked. I miss you so much. I hope you're doing ok.

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Today, i got booked to do 2 shows in october and I have a show coming up this sunday.

I wonder if you ever gotten to see the videos of my past performances that I sent you. You've always not been in great mood to be able to enjoy them you said. I hope you're feeling better now

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mitski’s new album’s out taro

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i try to use the voice you know with my friends now
its not quite all the way there all the time but i am definitely breaking down that mental block for sure
i hope i could share this with you
i feel like you’d be proud of me
i miss you
as always
hope you are well

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im really cooked
school started two days ago
and im just
so scared
i really dont know how ill keep going
this summer has completely ruined me
i feel no excitement or interest in meeting or socializing with people
i just want to disappear completely forever