how was this only 3 days ago. like im still scared but somehow im doing it scared. im processing more emotions than any human should have to. but life keeps going
we talked about it when we came home from work. we cried in each others arms. we’re just too fucking different as people but i love him so much. we’ve been together 9 years, since i was fucking 18. i don’t know what adult life is without him. why am i DOING this fucking damn it
weirdly at peace with divorcing my 9 year long relationship. excited to have my own space, literally for the first time ever I’ve never lived alone. excited to get a revenge body and maybe take HRT idk we’ll see which way the queer wind takes us
he treats me like shit sometimes. but he takes care of me other times. and the cycle just keeps going and going until im not sure who’s right. how am i supposed to sleep
i haven’t told anyone except my best friend this. my husband and i are very close if not 99% to a divorce. im taking a harm reduction shower at 1am with no one to tell this information to. i want to stay with him but i cant if i want to be myself. i want to feel free.
we talked about it when we came home from work. we cried in each others arms. we’re just too fucking different as people but i love him so much. we’ve been together 9 years, since i was fucking 18. i don’t know what adult life is without him. why am i DOING this fucking damn it
ok if I were to ever b/p again I think I would get like. 6 mcdonalds hamburgers and 20 nuggets. hella fries. a whole tub of cookie dough. wash it down with a huge diet coke. prge. go back out. 3 taco bell crunchwraps, a wendys frosty, an entire rotisserie chicken. prge. THEN-