I think I've resigned myself to the fact that I will more than likely die by suicide. Not today, nor tomorrow, nor probably any time soon, but it'll almost certainly happen at some point down the line.
I tried therapy and it didn't work, I tried going for walks, and exercising, and every other piece of pop-psych bullshit. And I refuse to neuter myself with SSRIs, so that's that.
"Hmmmm yes I will believe the UFO files released in the midst of the Iran war, just after another major file-drop, during a rapid growth in the field of generative AI" you are literal cattle