In past, you've been friends with so many ppls but after maturity you try to distance yourself from many of them. You just cut off the people who hurt you bcz being with them isn't good for you anymore. You find yourself alone and see other ppl laughing with friends makes you sad
Once my ammi said
โEhsas buht bhari chez hoti h
kahbi ksi ki dil azari mt karna
apny dil ko naram rakhna k kesi
ki ankho ki ansu ki waja tm na banoโข
I felt that