ever since i started measuring my success by how deeply i slept, how often i laugh, how much beauty i notice,
how connected i feel to God, how frequently my heart feels at peace,
my life improved.
every time i listen to maneater by timbaland and nelly furtado, i think about how they got so scared by the beat in the studio that they didn’t work on it for months because they thought they were summoning the devil
The second wave of puberty
The fully functional frontal lobe
The adult decisions
The carefree and happy side
The less need to please people
The glow up
This is what genuinely scares me about liking someone in this generation… it’s not even heartbreak anymore, it’s the lack of sincerity. Everything feels temporary, everything feels unserious, and nobody is even trying to hide it. People don’t court anymore, they just “vibe.” It’s attention without intention, feelings without commitment, and communication without consistency. You can talk to someone every day and still not know where you stand, and somehow that has become normal.
What’s even worse is how people are adjusting to it. Girls are learning to hold back, to act nonchalant, to pretend they don’t care as much just to protect themselves. Nobody wants to look “too soft” or “too available” anymore, so real feelings are being watered down just to survive modern dating.
But the truth is, some of us are still real lovers. We still value effort, reassurance, and being chosen clearly. And it’s exhausting trying to exist like that in a generation that treats love like a game. I can like you, but I’m not willing to be made a mockery of. I’m not built for confusion, inconsistency, or half love.
I honestly feel bad for people who love deeply in a time where depth is becoming rare.