"I said to the man who stood at the Gate of the Year/ 'Give me a light that I may tread safely into the unknown.' / And he replied, "Go out into the darkness, and put your hand into the hand of God. / That shall be to you better than light, and safer than a known way."
"Your death will come on an ordinary day, in the middle of unfinished plans, and the world will continue without you."
— Latin proverbs on Memento Mori
I can’t think logically about who I am or where I am going. I have been very ecstatic, horribly depressed, shocked, elated, enlightened, and enervated…..all of which goes to make up living very hard and newly.
June 20.
It is as if my life were magically run by two electric currents: joyous positive and despairing negative - which ever is running at the moment dominates my life, floods it