AJ MEE

Born | Living | Will die | Hypocrite |
CHASING HARMONY 🎑
08/10/2024 🕊️

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"I said to the man who stood at the Gate of the Year/ 'Give me a light that I may tread safely into the unknown.' / And he replied, "Go out into the darkness, and put your hand into the hand of God. / That shall be to you better than light, and safer than a known way."

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June 23.

June’s edge. The sun turns kind.

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― Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet

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June 22

― Mary Oliver, Little Crazy Love Song

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when the only escape is sleep but I can’t even sleep anymore.

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"Your death will come on an ordinary day, in the middle of unfinished plans, and the world will continue without you."

— Latin proverbs on Memento Mori

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I can’t think logically about who I am or where I am going. I have been very ecstatic, horribly depressed, shocked, elated, enlightened, and enervated…..all of which goes to make up living very hard and newly.

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June 21

“Go to heaven for the climate and hell for the company”

— Benjamin Franklin Wade

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June 20.

It is as if my life were magically run by two electric currents: joyous positive and despairing negative - which ever is running at the moment dominates my life, floods it

[Nostos @NostosLit]

from the diary of virginia woolf

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June 19.

Slept, woke up, slept, woke up, miserable life.

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June 18.

i sleep to avoid sadness

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All this shi just to die on a random day

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I want to be a good man but I want to be myself also and I don’t think I can do both

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June 17.

I so much want you to be happy.

Vladimir Nabokov, Letters to Véra

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I isolated myself thinking it’s cool, now I’m miserable and depressed

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June 16.

“And it's inside myself that I must create someone who will understand."

Clarice Lispector

— Brazilian novelist 1920 - 1977

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June 15.

“I was burning while you came blaming me for the smell of ashes.”

— Fyodor Dostoevsky

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June 14.

Just at present, life is awful. I am exhausted, scared, incompetent, unenergetic, and generally low in spirits.

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June 13.

If something feels of, it is.