having nothing to contribute to the current parental trauma conversation because you dissociated through most of it and can't remember that period of your life anymore.
Everyone says a parent’s love is unconditional but I think it’s the other way round. A child’s love for their parent is actually the unconditional one. As a child, you can never have another parent, but your parents can definitely have other children.
I used wish I had different parents when I was a child lowkey still do even now
I’d be in bed imagining what it’ll feel like to have emotionally regulated parents that actually love me as a human being and don’t see me as an extension of themselves
Anytime I tell my mum that it's too late for us to be besties she starts to crash out. Like she literally has no recollection of how mean and unapproachable she use to be.
In her head, she was and has always been mother of the year. Girl bfr.
More than the obligatory love, no one talks about the trauma of watching an abusive parent "change" so you're left looking crazy and stuck on some "thing" that happened in the past
Much love, cyn ❤️