I AM STL

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

I don’t suppress how I feel based of prematurity.

My FEELINGS aren’t CALCULATED. I allow myself to INTERNALIZE & EXTERNALIZE EXACTLY how I’m feeling in REAL-TIME. I rather use my DISCERNMENT than have my guard up because the INEVITABLE is out of my control. It’s more LIBERATING.

[Nicki Minaj @NICKIMINAJ]

Denying a young black man what he rightfully put into this game for no other reason but your ego. Your hatred for BIRDMAN, Drake & Nicki got you punishing Lil Wayne?!?!!! LIL WAYNE!!!!!!!!!! THE GOAT?!!!!!!!!!!! Nola what’s good?!!!!!! Eminem stood firm on having 50Cent come out. A white man. Shit sad. House NIGGER TINGZ. but it’s GOOD FI DEM!!!!!!! No loyalty ? Welp. then niggaz will keep son’ing you!!!!! #DTLR #GagCityDC LMFAOOOOOOOOOO GOODAZ FI DEL GAL U AH GOODAZ FI DEM.

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

a lot of the pain we endure we cause to ourselves because we don’t LOVE ourselves the way we should! we just go thru life blaming others because it’s EASIER than looking in the mirror & taking ACCOUNTABILITY.

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

i just feel like, once i have to start compromising MYSELF just to preserve the relationship, the relationship is OVER. I’m not compromising my INDIVIDUALITY for NOBODY. not even my wife! i LOVE, LOVE fasho, but I’ll always LOVE ME MORE….

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

choosing SELF is never SELFISH. however, not choosing SELF is SELFISH.

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

when i express myself ppl swear I’m taking it PERSONAL, that’s literally the FURTHEST thing from the truth & gaslighting at its finest too. i just wear my heart on my sleeve. i understand the LOGIC in any situation I’m in, but ill ACT on that after i express myself EMOTIONALLY…

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

when all else fails, continue practicing SELF-LOVE…

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

i LOVE STL.

i AM STL.

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

I’ve never viewed REJECTION as a reminder to humble myself, i view it as a reminder to practice ACCEPTANCE. ppl have a problem w REJECTION because they struggle w ACCEPTANCE. when you practice ACCEPTANCE, you free yourself from having a FALSE-SENSE of ENTITLEMENT…

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

do women pick the wrong men sometimes ? YES!

do men fake their personality sometimes? YES!

two things can be TRUE simultaneously. however, women deflecting ACCOUNTABILITY for their lack of DISCERNMENT is WHY they’ll inevitably repeat the same cycle over…

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

that’s not REAL-VALUE tho, that’s just LUST & GREED.

its in our nature as humans to WANT what we can’t have. we’ve been so conditioned to compete w one another, we feel we’re entitled to have whatever the next person have that we don’t or simply can’t have. that’s not VALUE.

[Audny 🎀 🩷 @AudnyApeiron]

If you’re beautiful and you post a man, all of a sudden everybody wants that man and his value increases to other women, sorry but no, only I am allowed to think you’re great LOL & also, evil eye

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

LIFE is easier when you ACCEPT reality for what it is.

remember, everything isn’t PERSONAL, so there’s no need to INTERNALIZE that way. & ACCEPTANCE is giving up trying to control what’s out of your control. ACCEPTANCE isn’t giving up. ACCEPTANCE is giving up being DELUSIONAL.

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

if you’re a SELFISH-LOVER, DO BETTER because REAL-LOVE isn’t SELFISH, it’s SELFLESS.

i understand why some ppl are SELFISH-LOVERS tho & it’s because they GENUINELY don’t LOVE themselves so they don’t know how to LOVE SELFLESSLY bc they’re SELFISHLY trying to fill their VOID!

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

I’ve never been a SELFISH-LOVER.

I’ve always been a SELFLESS-LOVER. my LOVE for ppl have always been UNCONDITIONAL, not CONDITIONAL. & to be honest, CONDITIONAL-LOVE to ME, isn’t REAL-LOVE. REAL-LOVE is EVERLASTING. REAL-LOVE have BOUNDARIES, not an EXPIRATION.

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

i really LOVE that shorty really a GIRLS, GIRL.

she don’t have that “mean gal” energy because she’s SECURE w herself & she’s not a LOSER. i LOVE her HUMILITY! she’s not just a girl, she’s THAT GIRL!!!

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

my next relationship, i promise to leave NO stone-unturned! i don’t want to exit another relationship harboring GUILT, & SELF-DOUBT. regardless of the outcome, i can sleep in the bed i made COMFORTABLY knowing i put MY best-foot forward. the FINALITY is out of MY control…

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

I’ve always been a LOVER at heart, i LOVE, LOVE. I’ve never been for the streets. yea, i frequent them err now & then, but i need MY SOUL nourished & all the streets ever done was feed my EGO… & I’ve been EGO-TRIPPIN quite too long, i need something REALLLLLLLLL!

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

anytime i CHOSE to judge someone based off what they told me rather than their ACTIONS, i played myself ERRTIME!

sometimes when you give ppl too much rope, you’ll hang yourself.

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

however, i understand GREED is ultimately in our nature as humans because it stems from us being INQUISITIVE. & w all the access we have TODAY, it only enhanced ppls GREED.

[I AM STL @_N9neshalant]

I’m perfectly fine w talking to someone that I’m dating everyday.

like, i understand DATING is INCLUSIVE not EXCLUSIVE, BUT if I’m interested in you, that means i want to LEARN about YOU DAILY. i never bite off more than i can chew because I’m not consumed by GREED….