Afolakemi Victoria Martins
You go blame the day you meet her
Don't worry, she just dey start with you. By the time she is done with you, you will learn to keep your dick inside your pant
If someone drains you, leave. If you have to edit your thoughts. Filter your words. Hide your success. Swallow your anger. Avoid certain topics. Leave. If someone makes you feel smaller, confused, more careful about every little thing, it means you do not feel psychologically safe around them. They do not belong in your life. Leave.
The moment you realise the life you built is a sham. God please make everything work for me. Take me out of this stuck phase.
Let my light shine like it used to shine.
Please God 🙏🏿
Couldn’t you find a way to let me down slowly? Did you really have to leave me with silence, unanswered questions, and a heart trying to understand what changed? I would have rather heard the truth gently than be left wondering where I went wrong. Some goodbyes hurt enough without making them cruel.
I may forgive you, but I won’t forget the nights I cried myself to sleep because of you. I won’t forget how much I questioned my worth, how badly I wanted things to be different, or how alone I felt while loving you. Forgiveness may bring peace, but it doesn’t erase what the pain taught me.
A friend is teaching me how to handle disappointment and dissatisfaction in life…apparently you don’t have to shut down and feel like dying everytime things don’t go how you want them to
I’ve spent so much time trying to understand myself, my emotions, what I want, and what I deserve. Now that I’m finally finding my way back to myself, all I want is to protect the peace I’ve worked so hard to find.
I’m discovering that my brain works differently in some significant ways. I’m still figuring out which things are related to that, which things are just my personality, which things are habits I’ve developed, which things I need to take responsibility for, and what actually helps
@Ilerioluwakiye_ My parents would move mountains for me. I was that child that just quickly noticed what our reality was and I adjusted.
I just didn’t ask or bother them. It exacerbated when I went to Uni. I literally saw myself through uni and law school. I just didn’t want to be disturbed
@Ilerioluwakiye_ I did this a lot as a child. I was the understanding child. Didn’t do my birthdays, didn’t go on excursions, didn’t ask for anything. It’s a trauma response. The child has noticed something
What are your own things? What do you want? What are you building? What are you learning? Where are you going? What are you creating? What does your life look like when nobody is giving you attention?
May your next lover be your life partner, not another life lesson. May it be the kind of love that brings peace, consistency, and growth not another chapter you have to heal from.
When I opened this page. It was just to get a space to express myself and all that makes me unhappy.
Day 1: I did my Tahjud and it made me feel great. I cried a lot but I was able to express my pain to my Rabb. I still feel pain but I will work on this pain alongside God.