So I relapsed with the a hidden intent, which I failed to complete, and now here I am 17 days later out of stuff, no orgasm in sight, and I can’t get hard…..it’s gonna be at least a month for everything to start working like normal….
I’m sitting here hating myself and the one thing that keeps crossing my mind is how one of the alpha straight kings I follow would probably laugh and hate on me too… fuck me
Finding comfort in isolation and doing absolutely nothing is probably an unhealthy approach to how I've been feeling lately. But the more I remove myself from society's expectations the better I feel. I don't want to do anything or be anything. I just want to quietly exist.