My christmas this year is different from the previous. Last year, while moving on from failing 2023, I did all the cooking for noche buena and media noche just to forget what happened.
This year, I dont have to prepare all the food because we will throw a thanksgiving dinner
That i had to go through.
To anyone who is reading this and can somehow relate, i wanna tell you that things will get better. Not necessarily today or days after or even months after... But it will get better. Hugs u tight 🫂
Last year, when I failed Hernando, I kept myself busy. I cooked for the noche buena & media noche. Somehow, my focus was diverted. I was happy marinating and cooking lechon manok in the oven. The taste was not pinoy, which I loved.
Days later, I thought things would be ok
But just when the holidays are over... Well, that was the only time that the failure sank in. I almost cried every night while watching kdramas. Those series helped me vent out the emotions ive been keeping inside. It was a difficult era. But it was something...
One of the examiners in poli law was my professor. He gave me 90 on my midterms and got 89 as final grade.
But I failed poli law during 2024 bar 🫠 See.. iba gumalaw ang tadhana. And i learned that last year -- in a hard way.
Naubos ang energy ko sa civil law. 10 minutes left and Im not still sure whether I'll type yes/no 😅 and even after deciding which one, I cant think of any legal bases to support my answer. But gladly pressed submit button before 12 nn.
And civil law was my highest 🥹
I forgot my self-made notes or like summary of important topics in crim law that I made. Resorted to whatever notes are in my bag.
But here's the catch -- my score in crim law was the deciding factor for a passing grade. And.. huhu. I made it!!
Hard work pays off. Yes. But hard work without God is nothing. He who has control over everything must not be forgotten.
Go back to Him. Serve Him in amy way you can. Surround yourself with people who accept you - even your failures.
There were times I wanted to imagine of passing the bar but I was controlling my imaginations. Because from last year's bar, I had learned that hoping is not about knowing.. hoping is about letting God answer our prayers the way He want it to be and not how we want it to happen
I failed some subjects and passed others. My scores were a roller coaster. There were questions which I seemed to know the answers, yet, I got low scores on those subjects.
And this is where God works. After the bar, I really surrendered it all to God.
Silent reader here throughout the bar review season.
I'm closing this account soon because, finally, God allowed me to become a lawyer before 2024 ends.
Personally, I found this year's bar exam to be far harder than last year's. Even my scores came as a surprise to me.