Aumnsiel

nope

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

thats me done with twitter, twitch, etc. altogether. i've got a lot to say about the last few years of my life, i even shared it all more or less unfiltered with the only people i talk to irl anymore.

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

i hope yall take better care of each other in the future, before they get ahold of someone who doesnt own firearms and have family and friends in law enforcement

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

heres one of the backbones of online streaming communities
right here
wannabe scumbags with money who feel entitled to directing peoples life and interactions

not gonna share the screens with actual threats, as they more or less dox me

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

and just so were crystal clear: obviously i have discord dms, proof, things that were supposedly told in trust and confidence. im no predator, no scumbag, if anyone tries telling you otherwise, just get away from em for your own sake seriously.

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

thats me done with twitter, twitch, etc. altogether. i've got a lot to say about the last few years of my life, i even shared it all more or less unfiltered with the only people i talk to irl anymore.

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

theyre curious why i specifically wont air things out on twitter, and thats because i have better things to do while (evidently) "battling cancer".

yall know who you are and what you did, thats enough for me.

ill leave this up until i get sick of it, probably a couple days

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

and who will save anyone? theres noone that isnt in some way also disintegrating, also selfishly upset over whatever, also an unfortunate pile of mistakes. were all fucked.

im done. theres no more.

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

cant wait to not be here, like this, feeling this way anymore

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

because overflowing with the negativity and depression that i didnt even put there, and being snapped back at, being left alone, being made to feel bad for feeling bad legitimately makes me wanna gouge out my fucking eyes and smash my face against the ground endlessly

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

what a horrible day for a mental breakdown

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

id give just about anything to see the new cronenberg, in a fuckin theater, the mere idea of which was once a fantasy

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

i get it though, if too many people knew about population control then blahblahblah yeah fuckin whatever

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

lmfao noone told me it was cancerous, ever, at any point
im a mushrooom, keep me in the dark and feed me shit

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

i am what people have made me into, i exist to support and serve, yet everyone avoids me and hides and leaves when i fall apart, again and again
and again
so i guess

this is the way of things, ill stop fighting it now and go to sleep

sorry everyone

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

@Coelasquid come for the cool moody obviously-weird-shits-goin-on vibe, stay for the richard o'brien

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

promises, promises

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

Lady was just dumpster diving and struggling, pulling out massive bags of dog and cat food from behind the pet store. I asked her in earnest if she wanted help lifting anything she said if I came close to her car she'd "shoot me in the fucking face" so thats fun lol

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

my birthday and the month after are just continually emotionally destructive dogshit to my entire summer, i think im done having this birth date. yeah, there we go. i refuse my identity altogether. fuck everyone else haha

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

whatever at least field buns will be here long after were gone

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

meanwhile im flat broke again and having anxiety about where my next non-sickening meal will come from, but everyone else has money. like i even eat more than fuckin once a day anyways but haha fuck everything i have to walk to walm4rt and buy diet soda haha whatever

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

its wild how i can be sick and/or fucked up in some way, and i get treated weird when i get up and force myself to do the things that need to get done later on. and i mean in a "why arent you laying down and staying in bed sick like you were earlier" kinda way

[Aumnsiel @Aumnsiel]

people are fuckin weird and shitty. like "yeah, i know i made you guys go do shit yourselves earlier because i had to vomit for a while, but now i have to do the rest of my shit, that you guys couldnt/didnt do earlier" i dont get it, do people even try to think of others? at all?