you know youโre daddyโs favorite fuck-toy, right? feeling you take every inch and still trying to be quiet but i know it wonโt take long before you start begging for more like a true slut.
So I got a new desk for my birthday and my current chair is just a little too short. (Short people problems) Anyone got any office chair recommendations.
women get horny when:
1. ovulating
2. when you smell good
3. after a deep conversation
4. after spending quality time with you
5. when they like the way your voice sounds
6. you kiss her forehead, then look into her eyes
7. when they admire your arms/hands/veins
8. you hold eye contact a little longer
9. you pull her close with confidence
10. when they feel emotionally safe
11. when they actually like you
12. about to start their period
itโs rarely just about s3x s3x s3x but about how you make her feel.
ADHD as a VTuber is not โhaha I got distracted.โ
Itโs the stuff people donโt see. Starting late. Dropping a plan you were excited about 10 minutes ago. Opening OBS, then suddenly fixing folders, the model, a thumbnail, and realizing you were supposed to be live already. Hyperfocusing on Warframe for hours and then having nothing left for replies, art, or the next stream. Making a schedule so your brain has a track to followโฆ then your brain yeets the track.
I want to talk about one part that hits hard and a lot of people still treat like a joke:
Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria. RSD.
RSD is when your brain treats rejection, criticism, or even the idea of someone being disappointed like an emergency. Not โaw that sucked.โ More like your chest drops, your thoughts start racing, and your whole body goes into โI messed everything up.โ
It can come from a quiet chat. A stream with low numbers. Someone not answering. A collab that didnโt happen. One comment that sits in your head for days. To other people it looks small. To an ADHD brain it can feel huge.
As a VTuber that gets ugly fast, because you put your face, voice, art, and time out in public. Then your brain starts writing stories. โThey didnโt show up because I suck.โ โThat one message means everybodyโs tired of me.โ โIf I go live and itโs dead, I should just stop.โ
Sometimes nobody even rejected you. Your brain just filled in the silence and called it proof. Thatโs the trap. Silence feels like a verdict.
What RSD is not: being dramatic on purpose. An excuse to attack chat. A reason to never take feedback.What it is: an emotional spike that can be way bigger than the moment. Shame that hits fast. The urge to disappear, over-explain, or never try again. A lot of us donโt look โsad.โ We look busy, quiet, jokey, or gone.
If you watch streamers, this is the part I want people to understand. Low view nights happen. Delayed replies happen. Someone needing space happens. That does not automatically mean the person failed, the community hates them, or they should be ashamed for existing on stream.
If you have RSD, one cold comment can outweigh 20 kind ones. Thatโs not logic. Thatโs the wiring. If youโre the viewer: donโt diagnose people in replies. Donโt say โjust donโt take it personal.โ Donโt pile on when someone is already spiraling. If you want to help, be clear. Be normal. Donโt turn a late start into a referendum on their worth. A โglad youโre hereโ does more than a paragraph of advice.
If you have this too: youโre not broken for feeling it that loud. You also donโt have to obey the first story your brain writes.
For me the work is simpler schedules, going live even when confidence is at 10%, not turning every quiet night into โI should quit,โ and remembering one stream is one stream. Not my whole value.
Still here. Still streaming. Still figuring it out.๐ฆ
I feeling a bit better now that my location is ceasing operations. Once again my safety was put in jeopardy cause this company doesnโt care about its workers. ๐๐
So guess who forgot that their birthday is 2 weeks awayโฆitโs me๐ง๐พโโ๏ธ On the plus side I have the day off for my birthday. But I work the day before and after. I work too hard yโall. Someone please baby me. Just for a day I beg!