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priv~ @siouxaz1 ☆ mommy ☆ recovered

[sioux ☆ @azr_3L]

I want to romanticize life again. Just not sure how to go about it while having a baby? I think I truly just need to be more patient with getting back to finding myself. Baby changes some much it’s crazy!

[sioux ☆ @azr_3L]

Having a baby has made me love my body in a way I truly didn’t think possible

[sioux ☆ @azr_3L]

@aoifesomewhere @feeisgoingcrazy Yesss! Especially when you BOTH love photoshoots😫

[sioux ☆ @azr_3L]

Uhh I’m starting to get sad all the time. It’s worse than just being sad bur I’m having a hard time acknowledging that ppd is definitely affecting me.

[sioux ☆ @azr_3L]

Ive been slightly struggling with my body image since having a baby but I keep reminding I had a Csection. I have to big my body wayyy more time. That’s okay🙃🙂

[sioux ☆ @azr_3L]

It’s still so wild to me that I’m doing good in life? Not where I’d like to be but I’m still doing GOOD compared to myself even a year ago

[sioux ☆ @azr_3L]

Also just had my birthday. I turned 23. That’s WILD😭

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I get to start seeing my old psychiatrist again. SO FUCKING EXCITED. It’s been a little over 2 years since I stopped meds but so happy for my anxiety to GTF AWAYYYYYY

[sioux ☆ @azr_3L]

Boyfriend is at store getting me yummy food! Breastfeeding has been no joke even with formula added to little dudes diet😭

[sioux ☆ @azr_3L]

I’m just gonna start posting randomly on this account. I notlinhee partake in starving myself BUT I do struggle with thoughts still and I’d just like a place to talk about things even if no one listens🙉🙈🙊

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@chrrypill So cute!! Wishing them the best and her a smooth delivery:)))

[sioux ☆ @azr_3L]

In hospital. Giving birth. Woah.

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@9905irl THANK YOU!!

[sioux ☆ @azr_3L]

I wish I could show people life gets better

[sioux ☆ @azr_3L]

@feeisgoingcrazy YOUVE GOT THIS FEE!! You know you’ve got this even if your head voice is making you doubt! You’re badass AS FUCK and I’m sure you have people who miss you be able to be around. You’ll do amazing but please give yourself a chance

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@feeisgoingcrazy We all know you can!! It’s hard as fuck but feels sooooooo much more rewarding than self harm or drugs. I’m not sure how to explain it truthfully. I really do hope you get to experience dopamine in healthy ways and that your brain stops fighting u n realizes you are safe✨

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@feeisgoingcrazy I hate words. It would be easier to be able to telepathically share our brain so people would understand. I’m not judging you either!! I’m simply concerned. The impulse control took me a few years to get down! I’m now 2 years self harm and drug free!!

[sioux ☆ @azr_3L]

@feeisgoingcrazy I have autism as well and same with other matching disorders. Your brain isn’t broken! You just cant follow in others steps thinking it’ll work for you. Also a friend who gives drugs knowing how you react IS NOT A FRIEND. Most “friends” you gave seem to wish bad upon you fee.

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@feeisgoingcrazy Different belt or more belts🙈✨🦄💪🏼