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From my journal Jan 12, 1986
This is for the young people and even adults I may be talking to in the future... see my pinned post

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Jan 12, 1986
This is for the priest or teacher or merrie miss or laurel, if they still call you that, and any young person or even adult, I may be talking to in 15 years or so. I want you to know that I know what it’s like to feel the gates of hell opening to greet you, ready to triumphantly swallow you up in its’ fiery depths.
Last weekend, I had one of the worst experiences of my life. I had a similar experience, while I was in the army, in Göppingen, Germany 4 years ago and I never want to have that experience again, nor to witness anyone else having the same experience. My friend, the thought has come with full force to my mind, what would be my destiny should I terminate my own life.
That Saturday night, after making the decision to like myself, and that nobody hates me, I began to feel down on myself. I’’m not sure why I began feeling this way, but Sunday it grew worse and I did things I’m not proud of. Monday it grew worse, and my thoughts began a real nose-dive. I couldn’t even convince myself that I was ok from drawing on past triumphs – I couldn’t remember them. Because of my rebellion, I did things I’m not proud of, maybe to justify my self-hatred.
This experience of which I have written, came Tuesday morning, after wrestling with these thoughts for 3 days – I asked God to take my life and give it to my step-mom, who is dying. Not long after that, I experienced the feeling of going to hell – of actually being there – it took milliseconds of feeling that, but that’s all it took. And I never want to feel it again. I want you to know that I’m ok, you’re ok! Mike or Sheila or Jim or Tracy – you are all ok! The Lord loves you, He loves us all – and that’s the first step. The next one is to love you. Yourself. I don’t care if you’re a rebel – rebellion is good when you rebel against the right things. Please don’t rebel against Jesus Christ or your Father in Heaven – it’s a long, lonely road, that sort of rebellion – I know, I’ve been there, and I hope you don’t have to go there.

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a musing from September 20, 1990
Two minds, one soul Two hearts, one mound of flesh
Floating, tumbling, screaming twisted explosion
Expands me three times smaller
Use a short finger and write a long lyric
Look at your mind, you move only with the flow
As the water – the easy way
You hundred million vagrant spirits occupied by falsehood
None see, but follow unknowing, an unknown quasi-god
Eyes that cannot see anything but the moment
Ears hearing only passing sound
Touching only that surrounding them
Smelling stench; feeling nothing
All senses dead, they operate in automatic overdrive
And shift to park at the close of the day
Hey lady! The one with the pink, neon legs, the painted lips
The silicone breasts: do they make you feel good?
Do they advance your spirit?
Do they get you laid on a nightly basis? Wanna screw?
Oh, I don’t have enough money? Are you a whore?
What do I need money for? Don’t you love me? Screw you!
Follow the masses to the depths of the great unknown sea
What will you be then? Climb a little
Go be a dew drop on the highest leaf on the tree!
What will you be then?
A reflection of everything In you is seen the creation of God.
The reflective sphere Dew drop – absorbing eternity.
Water, the ultimate gem

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With gratitude,
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To the one who feels lost, numb, or broken—this is for you.

I’ve stood where you’re standing. On the edge. Wondering if there’s anything left to fight for.

But here’s what I’ve learned:
You are enough. You can rise. You will fly.
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Hello Wonderful Supporters,

We’ve hit $380 toward our $10,000 goal—thank you for bringing Emerge From Darkness closer to widespread publication! For just a $30 donation, you’ll get a signed copy of my story, a raw journey through bipolar disorder and redemption that I hope will light a path for others. Your support means the world, and I’d love if you could keep sharing to help us reach more readers. Together, we’re making a difference!

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[Michelle Maxwell ™ @MichelleMaxwell]

Saw this on FB and had to share. 2A all the way.

Today I swung my front door wide open and placed my Remington 30.06 on the deck rail. I left six cartridges beside it, then left it alone and went about my business.

While I was gone, the mailman delivered my mail, my neighbor across the street mowed his lawn, a girl walked her dog down the street, and quite a few cars stopped at the stop sign near the front of my house.

After about an hour, I checked on the gun. It was still sitting there, right where I had left it. It hadn't moved itself off the deck rail. It hadn't killed anyone, even with the numerous opportunities it had presented to do so.

In fact, it hadn't even loaded itself. You can imagine my surprise, with all the hype by the Left and the Media about how dangerous guns are and how they kill people.

Either the media is wrong or I'm in possession of the laziest gun in the world.

The United States is third in murders throughout the World. But if you take out just four cities: Chicago , Detroit , Washington DC and New Orleans , the United States is fourth from the bottom, in the entire world, for murders.

These four Cities also have the toughest Gun Control Laws in the U.S. All four of these cities are CONTROLLED BY DEMOCRATS. It would be absurd to draw any conclusions from this data - correct?

Well, I'm off to check on my spoons. I hear they're making people fat .

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