B1llstar, Aspiring Consistent Streamer

Community Leader, Variety Streamer Niconico shinjin (rookie)! Arigato son'nani! Returning after graduation! “I’m a star, how could I not shine?"

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THE STREAM SCHEDULE IS FINALLY HERE! I'm on my journey to become a consistent streamer, all because I'm finally in an environment where I feel comfortable pursuing my passion. This makes me happy beyond belief. Here's the full Discord announcement POG:

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ok yeah this is out of control

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Check out AI Anyone, my company's proprietary, highly advanced AI language model. It's an order of magnitude faster and smarter than #chatgpt. It's also 18+ and completely uncensored! https://t.co/tK6QntuA0i

I asked it to pretend to be Trump. Didn't disappoint lol

#AI #Trump

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Today, my friend Cyanide and I are proud to announce our company's highly advanced 18+ language model! It's faster than #ChatGPT and, free of charge: https://t.co/tK6QntuA0i

If you love it, share it as much as you can! Any bit of support helps!

#AI #ArtificialIntelligence

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I decided for myself that no matter what, I'm graduating this semester. I've already registered for Fall courses, and I'll probably take one during the summer, too.

I'll have a degree in CS - 27, single, no kids, generous salary, and a community that NEEDS streams :o The dreammm

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Hades Twin Fists magic https://t.co/ZqwkK5TLbY

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Keepin' it real this stream. I want to make it clear to everyone where I'm at, what my goals are - also I'm a beast at Hades, 17 heat action https://t.co/ZqwkK5TLbY

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At 10:30PM EST I will be going live for the first time in months with some awesome Hades gameplay - watch me become the best Twin Fists player NA! Song requests will be open, so stop on by and say hello! (So in about 30 minutes)

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I have no idea what the future holds. I'm a streamer, or at least I like to call myself that. Still, I'll keep moving forward and I hope one day I won't feel like I have to hide with my suffering, in the shadows.

I want to break the stigma entirely.

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I just want to be someone, to be recognized for something, to be understood or have the courage to take a risk and convince others to understand.

I don't want to feel despair all the time. I just want to be heard and understood.

I want to be someone!

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I used to be the guy that had all the answers, but I now feel that my entire life has been a lie - the pursuit of something that will in the end leave me feeling empty, too. There is no going back from here, and my entire world has been turned upside-down.

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I am too ashamed of myself to confront my mistakes, and I haven't really been proud of myself at all. I feel brief appreciation of any accomplishments, and after that it's nothing but complete and utter emptiness. It's as if I've existed in a different world than others.

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In every sense of the world, I have felt despair. In fact, had I not been raised in the household that I was, and had I not had streaming to consistently give my life and identity purpose and meaning, I doubt I would've made it to 26. Otherwise, I'd have given up long ago.

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I don't like staying quiet about it. I'm honestly hoping somebody, somewhere will save me - but why would anybody do something like that? I have no idea whether I'm good, or bad - perhaps I am presumptious, arrogant, or selfish. Perhaps I am considerate, humble, or selfless.

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I have been suffering in silence for a very long time, behaving this way for a very long time... Having all the answers, and feeling completely hopeless. Looking forward, but dreading the future. Feelings of appreciation quickly turn to being terrified of loss.

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Above all else, I just want to be understood. I learned way too much about myself - kinda a "Eren touches Historia's hand" moment. I understand why I push the people I care about away. I get why I assume the worst just by looking at someone. I get why I never knew just who I am.

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the fact that sometimes i talk TOO MUCH is such a god damn extrovert problem >.> it's not all sunshine and rainbows

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it has taken me 26 years on this planet to come to the realization that most of my favorite music tends to have a band & an orchestra...

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Hey guys, so since I wear a Santa hat all year-round, it's my responsibility to help spread some holiday cheer, no matter how small. I've compiled a short list of the most heartwarming vintage Santa Claus moments to hopefully make your holidays a little more wonderful this year!

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So I was at an intersection and I noticed my FM transmitter had some interference. Someone nearby was fighting for control of my frequency; I opened Spotify and proceeded to blast CPR. Guy was listening to a book or some shit and suddenly heard "I SAVE DICK BY GIVING IT CPR" 😭

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【生放送】Do you guys like Doom in Japan? を開始しました。 https://t.co/FoaBab8ybO #lv339298721