BardiDragon

personal logging/venting account
idk if i'll remember to post or if anyone will even be there when i do

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

havent posted in a bit cuz nothing interesting has been going on, aside from continuing to feel depressed, so lol

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

damn i forgot to post about what happened yesterday, i went bouldering again and it was really fun, got a new climb!! went for sushi agai and came home to no parents, so i got to game again. overall really solid day yesterday, 8.5/10

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

i watched Good Will Hunting all the way through for the first time tonight (i fall asleep halfway usually) but its a really impactful movie, and it made me consider things about myself to be honest. i have no idea what i want to do with my life, and i think i should go to therapy

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

idk why i cant just go get a job and save up money. why is it so difficult for me to do this? its my fault for being stupid and lazy and i hate myself for it

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

my life is stupid and shitty, i hate it so much, i hate myself so much, i hate my family so much i just cant with my life sometimes, its so stupid and i hate it.

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

i fucking hate myself and nobody cares. im gonna wind up dead some day and people wont expect it because they never asked me if i was doing ok

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

scrolling reddit again, thinking about walking out to the gas station to pick up snacks even at this hour. i have no idea what to do with myself as a passtime outside gaming, i have no close friends

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

I survived until 6am (almost 7 now but whatever) guys i did it omg im so good at this game!!! (still depressed, i actually hate myself so much)

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

its also 5am so im feeling pretty depressed rn and that doesnt help very much but what do you do ;-;

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

now they took the power cord for my pc for god knows how long, i actually hate them so much sometimes (this happened like 7hrs ago but i was busy watching yt)

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

Pretty sure...

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

I... had a pretty interesting day.....

Parents got home from a week long trip and they were kinda unhappy with the state of things here lmao. its ok, i'm very used to angry parents. ruined my mood for the day though, oh well

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

@Medsboyo hells yeah, if you really wanna. make them cost a lot if you do because your art is amazingg

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

just rewatched the lackadaisy pilot,
its sooo well animated and the characters are pretty silly lmao. cant wait for season 1 to come out

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

only have 3 steam achievements left for balatro but ill work on those tomorrow cuz im a little sleepy

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

just gonna play balatro for the rest of the night tbh

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

finished climbing opened my blisters again, very fun time! got the same amount of climbs as my friend and we're gonna go again on monday. hopefully we will get some new ones! also afterwards we went to THE BEST japanese/korean food resteraunt and blew 50 each (left a $10 tip lol)

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

omw to bouldering today, gonna be fun asf

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

so we went back and forth for a good hour before realizing we've already gone way off topic. so now i dont wanna suffocate myself anymore, or even sleep for that matter. 2/2

[BardiDragon @BackOffYoat]

I tried suffocating myself by holding my breath for really long, then someone told me to think about what would happen when i died so i started explaining exactly what i thought, then they said they believed in an afterlife where your **soul** goes to when you die. 1/2