everyone that i deal with be so in love with me it literally spills over into hatred & this shit is heartbreaking. like you’re so angry i’m not this cutout you made but you love me but just not this version of me. sickening i might say lol
i feel like i can never be honest with what is in my mind & its driving me crazier like i feel so capable of certain shit & its scaring me but i cant even sit down & tell it bc people gonna be like well you be partying & look happy like yeah thats mania wtf