@sploon_priv People love what you do, and you can enjoy or eat up what you see from someone all you want! Don't bang your head into a wall. Be proud of what you have and keep pushing. It's not a shame to seek advice or input, and don't be afraid to shake it up. People struggle but find ways.
@sploon_priv First of all, reference isn't a sin. Some don't, but sketch and plan. Plus, unless you've got the artsyle you do, it's always going to be the same. You can take inspiration or expand, and it's not a problem. Find what you like and incorporate it because it isn't like you dont.
@sploon_priv You know, the fact you can draw is a talent in itself. And a whole point of getting where you want is growing. You're upset, but when have you expanded, genuinely experimented, and worked past what you can't do. Frustration and upset is all in a process