@bankheadsplurge Cause some people put up an act the first day you meet them, then act different when they get comfortable, (no shots at anyone, I’m speaking in general) bless
The universe is trying to break you. You must sacrifice who you are for who you can be. There is not a quick route or spiritual path to follow these next few months. Your only option is to force the mind to change by forcing yourself to carry out the new habits you know you need.