Like I want to so badly keep working and get back to it but what’s the real drive when you eventually will be hidden away without hope of coming back. I don’t think I’m lucky enough to pull off what I did again and again.
I haven’t been putting 100% effort I’d say into art as of late losing in total 23k Followers does really kinda put you down in wanting todo really anything since likely will just be shot down yet again.
And honestly I feel more like a drag having to ask any mutual I had before or try and get back on my feet again since it becomes just a state of perpetual begging I feel.