I'm so sick and tired of hearing "are u sick? You look so tired"
when I'm just heartbroken to the core but I can't say anything so I just say yeah a little bit
I'm starting to believe I'm not allowed to be happy in this life and I just need to give up and accept that I'm gonna end up alone
No family no friends no lover
Even my cat is gonna leave me one day
That first wake up after a heartbreak that almost took u out is seriously the worst time of your life
Opening your eyes and feeling everying all at once wishing it was a really bad nightmare but no it was all reality that u have to live with
I feel like something died inside of me
Or like everything im feeling is locked inside a corner inside of me and one day it's gonna all get out and k*ll me
I literally have no one to talk to about this and it's slowly k*lling me inside
The worst thing about pain and heartbreak is no matter how much in pain you are life goes on the sun will rise again Next day will come and u have to go to work and act fine when people are around but the pain of what's going on in your life is killing u
On Monday I'm gonna do something that I know will destroy me for a really long time but I'm gonna do it anyway to escape a circle I've been trying to get out of for a really long time but I couldn't so I decided to do a really dangerous thing
I'm scared to death but I gotta doit