Tell me why I’ve been restricting like I have never done before after seeing a dietitian? Yes I am not fasting but these past two days I’ve eaten below 1k cals like ok this is crazy
I want to relapse but I am so scared of being sent back to the ward fml. The truth is I still don’t care if I die or not no matter which meds they put me on. At least put me on fucking meds that don’t make me gain. Fucking hell I want to puke everything. I feel so dirty.
I don’t get it. It’s like in some phases I’ve got an ed and in some I don’t. And it’s what keeps me in this hellish cycle. Fuck you bulimia. If only I could’ve been consistent enough.<\3