I saw my ex of NINE years and for the first time today and forgot to breathe.
We broke up nine years ago, mutual break up (I wanted kids, she didn't). It absolutely broke my heart because other than that she was a perfect match for me. We were together for five perfect years.
I got married, I have a beautiful son and most of the time I feel comfortable with my life. I absolutely am a different person compared to nine years ago. When I married my wife we were really happy for a while, but in the past two years she got into a really bad depression, started drinking and she refuses to get any help, so I guess this situation also contributed to me reminiscing about better times..
Anyway, tonight I saw my ex for the very first time since the break up and I had a physical response, my chest tightened and I lost my breath for a little. And now I am sad and I feel very guilty for feeling this way.
I just wanted to let this out and it is something that I absolutely cannot share with anyone in my life at the moment.