blmy

I cuss a lot, I’m here to vent. if you catch me slippin call me out. over 30

[blmy @Bl00dF4rrt]

Relationships and life are fucking hard, I wanna be a fucking stick in the woods that someone stepped on and is just chilling, cool in the mud

[blmy @Bl00dF4rrt]

Holy shit, havent been here in a while

[blmy @Bl00dF4rrt]

I’m not your servant I’m not your servant I’m not your servant I’m not your servant I’m not your servant I’m not your servant I’m not your servant I’m not your servant I’m not your servant I’m not your servant I’m not your servant I’m not your servant I’m not your servant

[blmy @Bl00dF4rrt]

I 100% have to leave this house asap because I just don’t even think I’m a person anymore at this point.

[blmy @Bl00dF4rrt]

I went to the bathroom to just get away from the situation for a min and when I get back he’s asleep of course.

[blmy @Bl00dF4rrt]

Legit wonder if he’s trying to make me break up with him so he can be off the hook, because I feel like at this point in the relationship he should really know me better than to say something like that

[blmy @Bl00dF4rrt]

:) my partner just hit me with so many of my triggers at once that I almost broke up with him

I guess the fact that I haven’t desperately attempted to escape the house yet is proof of growth but jfc is he testing me rn

[blmy @Bl00dF4rrt]

Really hit me with the “you’re acting crazy, I won’t talk to you unless you can talk without so much emotion in your voice” like ok MOM lmaoooooo

[blmy @Bl00dF4rrt]

Also I’m proud because the reason I’m stressed is cuz I’m pushing myself lately to do hard things and I’ve been working more and socializing more than I have in a long time, so obviously I’m gonna be tired. Idk IM ALSO A LIL inebriated from a piece of chocolate

[blmy @Bl00dF4rrt]

Just had a call with my mom that was more triggering than I expected or realized right away. Like obv any calls gonna leave me a bit on edge but I nearly had a panic attack after this one lmao

[blmy @Bl00dF4rrt]

I managed not to have a panic attack and also I communicated very (for me) clearly to my partner about what had me upset which is honestly big (for me) so I’m also a little proud of myself?? Idk idk

[blmy @Bl00dF4rrt]

V frustrated and sad rn and also kinda angry

[blmy @Bl00dF4rrt]

16 vs Now. I’m less nervous and more annoyed lmao

[PC @ laserlime.bsky.social @laserlime]

16 vs now (25)

[blmy @Bl00dF4rrt]

I’m here. Shits rough lately

[blmy @Bl00dF4rrt]

Also I feel like this is very internet specific

[blmy @Bl00dF4rrt]

I…don’t know if I’m comforted by this or not lmfao

[blmy @Bl00dF4rrt]

I don’t like coming here much anymore

[blmy @Bl00dF4rrt]

See, I agree with this but also one of the only reasons I’m still here is cuz I’ve been someone left behind from a suicide and felt that pain, and don’t want anyone to feel that way because of me. Like don’t guilt people but sometimes that IS something that makes it worth living

[lets heal and recover @recovery_your]

Suicidal people deserve better than to be told the main reason they shouldn’t kill themselves is because of how it might affect others.
Suicidal people deserve love and help, not guilt trips.
Suicidal people deserve to feel like their life is worth living, worth fighting for.