I am really at my breaking point with my situation, a situation i cannot escape. Nothing feels plausible to my situation anymore, I feel like I cannot be saved, my hope feels like delusion
i am isolating myself, im not doing okay, i havent for awhile. i dont want to keep living, i want to end it all but i am too afraid to. it feels like torture getting up everyday recently, i cant even harm myself to relieve the tortuous feeling in my gut.
id go to a professional about my feelings because i feel utterly stupid and irresponsible being so vulnerable on *twitter* out of all places but i geniunely cannot get the help I need, my mother is very neglectful. I am just extremely scared for myself and my loved ones.