NOT YOUR FAULT AT ALL. If the top did not do anything to make this feeling go away, they FUCKED up. The first time NEEDS to be taken slowly, so two hrs is not a long time; I love giving head for that time, then foreplay n then the big bang.
Tried my first ever sexually interaction with a guy and it was a failure βStill a virginβAnd I don't blame him for anything, he's the experience one, so the blame is solely on me. First I couldn't get βwet enough.β He tried fingering me and it hurt too much. He tried oral sex on me and it was too much for me to handle and I had to tell him to stop.
He respected my boundaries the whole time and always stop when I told him to, and I feel incredibly guilty about it.
I tried to do a blow job on him and I kept gagging. Just embarrassing. When I try to dry hump him, I couldn't even do that right. We finally used lube and it did help for me, but I still felt incredibly sore so we didn't go all the way.
Took him almost 2 hours to cum and I feel awful because of that.
I feel embarrassed and ashamed about this encounter and even though he said it was fine and wants to continue seeing each other, i'm thinking about calling things off with him. I couldn't do the simplest things correctly and I just cringe at the memory.
I guess long term virginity does affect a person.