There's only 6 women I still wish were still my friends. I fucked up. Sometimes I wish God would make an exception with me as I don't like the life I'm living anymore.
I lost a friend. I thought she was the problem. She was partially the problem but it was mostly me. Because I felt her little jabs at me were personal.
I really wish I had someone to talk to. I choose to not involve my sister in my mental health struggles all this year. She thinks I'm ghosting her but I'm scared to tell her that I'm one step closer away to killing myself. I'll wait until I turn 40.
This may sound like a call for attention but I'm not doing that. I'm really considering committing suicide when I turn 40. Being alone like this can really mess with your mental health. I felt like my self esteem was doing good until the worst thing in my life happened.
Every now and then, I think of my relationship. It wasn't really a natural one. Like, I met her in one of the most awkward places ever. Yet, I was so stupid to see how much she really meant to me. I wish i could travel back in time to fix things.