Rest in peace Oliver Tree Nickell June 29th, 1993 - June 14th, 2026
Your legacy will live on forever ā¤ļø Thank you to everyone who has reached out, shown love, support and has done incredible tributes for Oliver. The constant love, support and positivity is helping the family, friends and collaborators make it through these extremely difficult times.
Oliver is now back in California where he can finally rest. His legacy will live on through his foundation/endowment named āDr. Oliver Treeās Extremely Epic Grant For Baby Geniusesā coming soon. This is something that Oliver had put together before his passing, written in his will. We will make sure his wish comes to fruition so that more joy, love and art can be spread into the world, that was his final wish.
Love you all so much, Oliver would be so proud of every one of his supporters, friends and family.
Peace be with Oliver ⦠ā¤ļø
Never will forget this lesson from Oliver or the time we had on @NBRadioPodcast Thanks for sharing your art and for always being different in the best way possible. See you on the brighter side ššæ
@SuicideChrist A lil late to this, but you always hit so different with these talks. 3 greydays (personally) and almost 15 years is insane to think about; no matter the ups and downs. Yall boy$ always doing your thing, Praise God you guys made it to where you are. Love seeing y'all grow.
every year that passes, i realize what a gift ive been given to still be alive. itās a miracle that i ever even drew a sober breath. even if it stopped right there - that would have been a miracle in itself. so many people donāt make it. including friends and loved ones of mine. and i did. and i wasnāt even trying. there was no āquittingā. i was absolutely incapable on my own power of stopping even if i wanted to. i was sure i would die sooner than later and maybe then, the nightmare would be over.
all credit goes to God. He absolutely did for me what i could not do for myself. i donāt question it - i try to make the best out of it and use my pain and experiences to help other people. there is no drug in the world that compares to when after hours, days, years of me working on something, pouring my soul unfiltered - no writing, sacrificing time for myself, my wife, my family, etc and i see you guys listen and you get it. you understand me. you are me, only i just have a big loud microphone. you cry. you light up and turn the fuck up. and for that moment - we connect. there is no better feeling than that and yall give me that. year after year. i could never repay what all of you have given me.
i know what itās like to feel hopeless. to see other people get sober, change, etc and be like āfuck themā. idc if youāre sober, what religion or politics you subscribe to, if youāre shooting fent, I LOVE YOU. youāre not alone. you have a chance. i didnāt think any of that applied to me. good for other people but wouldnāt work for me. iāve never been more wrong in my life. if you need help - please reach out and get it. itās not fuckin easy. but it really is simple. if you can get honest, have an open mind that maybe you donāt know everything you think you know, and are just the tiniest bit willing to do something different - you have a shot
i used to think i didnāt believe in anything. i was a nihilistic miserable mother fucker. life had no meaning. there was no higher power. life was meant to just be tolerated at best. how wrong i was. even when i was a ālazy atheistā i was worshipping something and didnāt even know it - I WAS WORSHIPPING MY THINKING AND MY REASONING. i worshipped praise. money. fame. validation. music. so i did have faith all along. only that faith was in a delusional idiot who thought he was smart (me). but once i put my life into the hands of something bigger (whatever was working for my sponsor or the old timers in AA cuz i was incapable of comprehending a god) my life changed. i started to stay sober. i wasnāt obsessing about getting high. my perspective of the world changed by working a couple stupid steps.
some people say i talk to much on here. i care too much about what yall think. i lose the āmystiqueā by spilling and talking to yall like a normal person. but FUCK THAT. i am a normal person. iām not special. God has given me a gift and today i pray im using it to help whoever is willing to listen. iām not perfect. im broken. iām a boy who is scared of the world although i act as if i fear nothing. iām littered with fear. drugs were my way to turn the volume down. instant acceptance every time i got high. fuck being sober - wanted nothing to do with it. i rather die.
thank you God. thank you 12 step programs. thank you to getting back to my faith in my Lord, Jesus Christ. thank you to anyone and everyone who stuck with me and even the ones that didnāt. i truly understand. thank you to my wife. she is the best person iāve ever met. my parents who tried and continue to try their best. broken for sure but always loved me with everything in them. thank you guys for giving me a life i couldnāt even fathom and getting to do what i love every fuckin day. even if this helps one person - then great. today is not about me - itās about showing there is hope, God is real, and you have a chance. please donāt give up.
Thanks again to @asvpxrocky for bringing me along for the ride. Shout out to the whole crew and @amazonmusic for having me. Doing the string arrangements was a blast!
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