I would hope you all have, and I am sorry about my longevity and silence to posting about the thoughts in my head. Sometimes life can be a little crazy that it takes away from the things we want to do, and that's perfectly okay.
I used to host dinner parties, excelled in school with a 4.0 in engineering program (before I had to leave due to finances), could carry a conversation with anyone, was extremely confident, though I will say I have more common sense smarts than book smarts of course.