I want romance. I want intimacy. I want the 2 am love making. I want consistency, loyalty. I want the random looks of admiration. I want to know you're just for me. I want date nights. I want love so pure and true. I want it because I can return it.
Throwback to when haters tried to accuse Whitney Houston of lip syncing the national anthem at the superbowl because of nfl demands and she had to remind them who TF SHE IS!!!!!! GAGGED THEM BAD!
You’re exhausted.
You’re overwhelmed.
And you deserve support before you collapse under the weight of it all.
Your feelings are real.
Your struggle is valid.
And you don’t have to wait until you’re suicidal
to deserve help, gentleness, and understanding.
And that hit me.
You don’t want to disappear.
You want the heaviness to lift.
You want a break from carrying everything alone.
You want a life that feels less like constant pressure
and more like something you can actually breathe in.
You’re not dangerous.
You’re not dramatic.
But inside, you’re holding everything together
with threads that are thinning every day.
My therapist said:
“When someone says they’re not suicidal,
but they feel themselves slipping,
it means their hope is tired, not gone.”
You’re not suicidal.
But you feel worn down.
Drained.
Overwhelmed by responsibilities.
Disconnected from yourself.
Numb in places that used to feel alive.
And the scariest part?
You’ve gotten good at hiding it.
People think you’re strong.
Stable.
“Doing fine.”
Because it’s not that you want to end your life
it’s that you can’t keep living it this way.
It’s a deep exhaustion:
The kind that sits in your bones.
The kind that makes simple things feel impossible.
The kind that makes your chest heavy before the day even starts.
I told my therapist:
“I’m not suicidal…
but I’m tired in a way that scares me.”
She didn’t brush it off.
She didn’t say “everyone gets tired.”
She didn’t tell me to think positive.
She said softly:
This woman saved for months to get away from her abusive husband. This uber driver took her to the airport and his excitement for her is contagious. Love to see it.🤏🏾🤏🏾