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An original character made for the #descendantsrp verse. The son of The Cheshire Cat from Alice In Wonderland. Ships based on chemistry. MDNI.
he returns the squeeze, leaning back into the couch. he's trying not to be scared, not to be terrified, but he knows he is. but this is the best thing he can do, the thing he needs to do.
"trying not to be. i'm so happy that you're here. that you'll always be here. like i will."
he squeezes his hand gently, a reassuring squeeze to show him that he was here, and he was going to be here through everything. jack was his whole world.
โyou donโt have to be scared.. iโm here, and iโm not going anywhereโ
"and you don't have to." he's doing it. he's going to tell the world. he doesn't care what people think anymore, he loves charlie, and he deserves to be out and proud. charlie deserves the world, and jack is willing to give it.
โand i love you..โ which is what makes all of this so difficult for him. he wanted to show off his love for him but couldnโt, and didnโt know when or if he would ever be able to.
โi just.. donโt want to hide anymoreโ
"and i'm giving you my heart. you have my heart." he's reaching for his hands, giving a pleading look. "listen, charlie, i love you. and . . i will scream that to the entire world to show you just how much i do."
โmaybe..โ he repeats the word, looking down with a sigh. โiโm giving you my heart for a maybe.. a possibility that someday youโll be ready. i donโt know if i can do that, jโ
he panics a little, on the inside. he doesn't want to lose him, he wants to come out. he's just. .terrified.
"i will, soon. .maybe." you can hear the slight panic in his voice, sitting up slightly. "i don't want you to be my secret. i'm sorry for making you feel like you are."
he just looked at him, frowning a little. this side of him, the vulnerable side, it only came out around him. he wouldnโt dare let anyone else see it, not even red.
โwill you ever be ready?โ he asked in a whisper. โbecause i canโt keep being somebodyโs secret..โ
"sorry." he whispers, shrinking slightly into the couch. no one even knows he's gay, so it's kinda hard to show off a relationship when he's not even out of the closet. he's not ready to be out yet, the only person who knows his sexuality is charlie. for obvious reasons.
โand you donโt think itโs new to me?โ he rolled his eyes. โred knows.โ sheโs pretty much his only friend so he canโt really tell anyone else.
closing his eyes for a moment, gathering his thoughts. "it's just..everything is new to me. that's why no one else knows. but i can reassure you, i am /NOT/ ashamed."
"no, no, that's not it." he's shaking his head, looking back over at the other. "i don't care about whatever reputation i have. i care about you. that's all i care about."
โi know you well enough to know thatโs a lieโ he says. he picks up the remote and turns off the tv. no distractions now. โi get it. you donโt want people to know that you like a vk. i mean.. that would ruin whatever reputation you may have, right? and you donโt want that.โ
"i'm โ i'm not afraid to tell people." he huffs out, eyes going back to the tv. he knows it's a lie, but if he says it loud enough it may become the truth.