chiron_the_hypeman

just a golden retriever gamer boy with the intent of a murderous psychopath

[chiron_the_hypeman @ChironHypeman]

Idk why but watching the people who fucked me over suffer and get played or remain unhappy makes me feel better and idk why

[chiron_the_hypeman @ChironHypeman]

I had a spiraling moment yesterday. And I realized that I’m just done
- poly
- figuring it out
- love and care about you
- I’m not ready
- you’re not my type
- I thought you were gay
- you give me bisexual femdom love energy and I need a man
- how about fuck you

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To all the people who took my 110 percent and spit it back, I hope you die of a broken neck, you’re all liars, deceivers, cock whores, attention seekers, fakes, who all cry for something more then turn right back into the same type of people you complain about. Eat shit and die

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Almost 8 weeks medical. Almost 3 weeks weightlifting. I need 3-4 months savings and hopefully 3 months my first apartment….

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Left and right. Everything has to be a god damn struggle.
On the left I have the “I love you and I care about you but I can’t be with you cause xyz.”
And the right
“No you’re not mentally/physically disabled a pysche, a therapist, a medical professional doesn’t know” WTF really

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You get put under a microscope when words don’t match actions…. I don’t do it out of control I do it because I know what’s on the other side… me alone and you sayin you love and care but can’t be around me

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I hope it’s fucking worth it to keep pushing me away. I hope it kills you every day. You’re just like those who hurt you.

[chiron_the_hypeman @ChironHypeman]

Fucking fuck fuck fuck fuck
Why am I like this. The fuck did I do to haw my brain so fucked in the head. Fuck you, them him him her her
Everyone FUCK YOU

[chiron_the_hypeman @ChironHypeman]

What if I really just shut it all off? Is that even possible?

[chiron_the_hypeman @ChironHypeman]

Convo between my therapist and i
“You’re a bankrupt trust bank”
“Huh?”
���It means that people have with drawn more trust then deposited and then when they owed trust they left”
“Is that my fault”
“Yes/no you played a 5% fault”
“So it’s not all me, I’m not the problem?”🥲🥹
“No”

[chiron_the_hypeman @ChironHypeman]

Yall ever wanna post shit but you have eyes on you and if you make a post you’re gonna get ridiculed for it? No? Well fuck you. Sometimes I just need to be taken out
With a .50

[chiron_the_hypeman @ChironHypeman]

I’m too god damn sensitive, I just need to be a recluse and never talk to anyone or be with anyone

[chiron_the_hypeman @ChironHypeman]

Self deprivation, hatred, and the want to disappear hits again… fuck I just want to be wanted the same way I want someone. And I never am

[chiron_the_hypeman @ChironHypeman]

Bruh, the quiet push out is crazy.

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Google is a powerful tool that no one uses…
They just grip the first thing that triggers them and run with it…
Fucking absolutely pathetic

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Truama is a fucking whore of my goddamn psyche. I don’t trust anyone. I’m too scared to because I don’t wanna get hurt again. “Oh trust me, trust me, have I ever given you a reason not to” you glue a broken bowl back together? do the cracks go away? They don’t.

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And the ride gets bumpier…. I feel like it’s bones in crushing and it isn’t theirs… and yet it is.

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@Kt_christine You like what you can’t have?

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@chili_girl_ Hi

[chiron_the_hypeman @ChironHypeman]

How are you gonna be this dumb?
Like what you thought no one would say something to me?
You think I haven’t set myself up to make sure my ass is always covered?
There’s a reason they gave me my title and why I’m always asking questions