losing weight for what? to go out with the friends i don't have? to have sex with the boyfriend i won't get? to look good for the strangers i don't meet? why am i doing this?
i always wonder who or what i could’ve been if i wasn’t so mentally ill i miss all the friendships i could’ve had all the experiences i should’ve had all the time i Wasted. i feel ive spent the majority of my life living locked in my own head
my age is the most depressing thing about myself. I've been so mentally shut off for so long I feel like im still supposed to be 19 but im actually 26 and it kind of just makes everything feel not even worthwhile to try