Even after all those days spending with him, when it comes to that '1 day with dia', I feel very sad. I want him alone! I dont want to share, but I know he will never leave 'dia'. The next option is, leaving me. I am preparing myself for that but at the time I am denying it.
It hurts to be triangle relationship. I met this guy this year in April. For the first time in my life, i felt connected to him, comfortable, I can be myself when I am around him. I love him on the first sight but I held it to myself, coz not once in my life I fell in love.
I cannot leave him, the stupid of me. It hurts but it will hurt me more if I leave him. Yes, I will be suffering for the next few weeks, but I dont know how to live without him. We meet 6 days a week, most of the nights we sleep together, and his time with 'dia' only 1 day a wk.