🪐🌇🌆Matter🌃🌌🪐

🔞 account used mainly for following both swf and nsfw artists/art alike, so no minors allowed. Politically vague, pro-sanity and free speech/expression.

[🪐🌇🌆Matter🌃🌌🪐 @ClicksnClacks]

New pin. 📌
• Don't like cancel culture/lynch mobs
• Love art
• Love nsfw
• Love weeb stuff
• Love(d?) vidya
• Tired
• Very, very tired
• Be good to eachother
• Accept that you might not be right, that you have/will change, and that others can and have changed as well

[🪐🌇🌆Matter🌃🌌🪐 @ClicksnClacks]

Eat shit New York Mac cuck, your pizza and the rest of your larp cuisine sucks ass too

[🪐🌇🌆Matter🌃🌌🪐 @ClicksnClacks]

I want this account for archival purposes, so don't you dare remove it in your sloppy purge

[🪐🌇🌆Matter🌃🌌🪐 @ClicksnClacks]

420 SQ, now my Arts servants are blazin' it fr bussin bussin no cap on god

[🪐🌇🌆Matter🌃🌌🪐 @ClicksnClacks]

Wuz gonna complain about the new Trigun's Vash having Kpooper hair and Kirito's voice, but it'll have been 25 damned years between the first anime and the new one's debut; I am NOT the target demographic anymore.

Back to the regularly scheduled stressed n depressed ghosting.

[🪐🌇🌆Matter🌃🌌🪐 @ClicksnClacks]

She should be coming home in a few days, she's gonna be blown away by how good the house looks now...

Maybe I'm hoping for too much, but I want her to recover well enough to have more than a few more years without the pains and ailments that have plagued her.

[🪐🌇🌆Matter🌃🌌🪐 @ClicksnClacks]

Talked to my grandmother in a call today and she sounded amazing, apparently she's still having trouble holding down food but IS hungry and asked for some bottles of Ensure from home. Even remembered to ask us to check the expiration dates since she's been gone for so long...

[🪐🌇🌆Matter🌃🌌🪐 @ClicksnClacks]

I hope she comes home soon, even if it's just so she can live out the rest of her time here. The house was repainted to the same color it was when she and my grandfather first bought it in the 60's. Coincidentally the same color as my childhood home - sea foam green + white trim.

[🪐🌇🌆Matter🌃🌌🪐 @ClicksnClacks]

My grandmother will be receiving hospice care, she's suffering internal bleeding that doctors can't quite pinpoint but they said she wouldn't survive another surgery anyways.

"I'm ready to go when god will take me" is what she's saying now.

She's been hospitalized for weeks.

[🪐🌇🌆Matter🌃🌌🪐 @ClicksnClacks]

I actually visited my grandmother the other day, she was awake only briefly and asked for a bunch of help. One thing after another I tried my damnedest to make her comfortable - later realized that with my haircut, mask, and turquoise shirt she probably thought I was a nurse. :/

[🪐🌇🌆Matter🌃🌌🪐 @ClicksnClacks]

Now for some positive news; my dad's apatite is strong after a period where he was weak from not eating and throwing up anything he tried to munch on, also his gout went away.

Oh, and Megumin's Nendo got a rerun. Grabbed her and Yunyun. Love Yunyun's smear frame arms lmao

[🪐🌇🌆Matter🌃🌌🪐 @ClicksnClacks]

My last hope is that if my grandma pulls through her health will change drastically for the better. Stuff we attributed to dementia really seems to be due to her colon, from her constant low pained moans when conscious to her complaining about UTI pains (definitely the colon).

[🪐🌇🌆Matter🌃🌌🪐 @ClicksnClacks]

Been dead and absent, obviously. Dealing with months of stress and lack of sleep from caring for two elderly relatives with major health issues. Add in a bunch of other bits of bad news and you'll have me not wanting to maintain a sociable online presence... and things got worse.

[🪐🌇🌆Matter🌃🌌🪐 @ClicksnClacks]

They both deserve so much better... and they were both so close to reaching that finish line. I don't give a shit about my own future, it's null and void as far as I'm concerned. I just want my loved ones to have the happiness and joy they deserve after years of hardship.