I’m tired and overwhelmed. This summer sent my my nervous system into complete shock I don’t even have the words anymore fr I feel numb and like a brick wall has came up around me for protection I want it to come down but it won’t lol and it’s not even funny but it’s funny idek how I’m still operating.
Not even an apology can undo how certain people made me feel. Some damage ain't about words, it's about patterns, disrespect, and seeing people for who they really are.
Was having a conversation about assisted suicide with someone and I am not against it all on any level if you feel like you’d be happier in the other realm then by all means I can understand life sucks bad asf not saying not to try your best you can but I can understand wanting to be gone also.
Looking back re-reading my tweets from literally a year ago like wtf why haven’t I been pivoted why am I this fckd up about sht I been getting the short end smh
I be so embarrassed for what I’m going through cause I usually leave men but I love this person so much I wanna really make it work but idk if he does fr smh