To all those who I owe a tarot to, please pay with me, I am getting my laptop fixed, I honestly struggle to type long shit on my phone and I want to be detailed and not give you guys a short reading/feedback
You are not the thoughts you create, you are the one who observe those thoughts.
Just observe those thoughts, don't let yourself absorb in those thoughts.
you feel sad or low bcz you let yourself absorb in those thoughts. Let it go like clouds come and go.
you are the sky.
Imagine it like this, you spent two weeks designing a game (your life) with a certain identity (i’m not chosen, I am second best, I don’t get what I want, someone else always gets what I want, I can’t believe I don’t have that shit, I have to work so hard to get shit, life is difficult, the minute get money it goes out) and the new ex surprised when your character in the game is based on those identity assumptions.
At that point, DECIDE TO delete the saved file of the game you don’t want and rewrite a new file over that old saved game. Do it from the knowing and the DECISION that you are chosen, you get what you want, shit is easy, whatever money you give out you get back tenfold, I am the luckiest) AND YOUR CHARACTER WILLL REFLLECT THIS IN THE NEW GAME.
Do not be a loser in your own game
How to Handle a "Glitch" in the Game
In any video game, when you hit a lag spike or a glitch (like seeing the third-party, getting blocked or feeling a spike of hatred towards your SP), you don't panic and smash the console.
You just pause or ignore the glitch, knowing the code underneath is fine.
If a thought of the 3P or anything undesirable pops up: Treat it like a background NPC walking into a wall. Do not fight it. You just say: "NPC behavior. Unrendered. Not in my game code." And you go right back to looping your Winner apps.
If a wave of anger/anxiety at your SP hits: Acknowledge it as an old achievement notification from a level you already beat. Be like "Ah, the 2024 Bitter Achievement. Cute. Fuck off." Then drop back into your breath and the present moment.
Babes you are the player and the game designer. The old save file is wiped. You just hit "New Game" and you selected the god-mode character.
The Game (a non-dual way to flip your whole life)
- You're not broken. You're just playing the wrong game. There's a "loser character" and a "winner character" but here's the secret: They're the same board, seen by two different sets of eyes.
- The loser game looks like this: Reacting to the screen. Blocked. Broke. Left behind. Checking his activity. Asking "how do I make reality change?" That's a character trapped inside the game.
- The winner game? Realizing you're not the character on the board .. you're the PLAYER holding the controller. The character doesn't react to the screen. The character DEFINES the screen.
- Here's the part that frees you: The screen only shows what the character believes it shows. Since you're the player, not the character, you never have to "fix" the screen. You just switch which character you're sitting inside. The pixels update on their own.
- So the winner character doesn't ask "what does the screen say?" She asks "WHAT AM I BEING?" Because she knows the screen is a mirror. Tend to yourself. The reflection handles itself.
- And she plays the ALREADY DONE level. Not the level where he comes back (that's still waiting = lack). She plays the level AFTER … where it's all handled. Where she's whole, adored, provided for, at peace. She lives in the END feeling, not the struggle.
- The loser checks the scoreboard. The winner IS the score. Stop checking. Start knowing. The game isn't waiting for you to win. It's waiting for you to remember you're the one who owns it.
- You don't manifest. You REMEMBER you're the dreamer. Observer and observed are one. There's no separate "them" to change. Only you, deciding which character to sit inside today. Choose the winner. She's already you.
- Save this tweet, remind yourself daily: "I'm not in the game. I'm playing the game. And this character is thriving, whole, and already has everything." That's it. That's the whole thing.
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I guess when I was having epiphany about observing own thoughts, it's core of ND.
Nd makes so much sense. It's just nothing literally nothing do or achieve rather than just being.
So yes, everything literally all is made up.
I've said this repeatedly you don't have shrug off your feelings. Feel them, let them exist while knowing it can't affect your decision because it's the truth and then move on.
Running away from feelings/thoughts/emotions implies you're scared it will tell you something unwanted